Christmas Time!

So...a lot is going on in the Eason household!  We have a vibrant and [very] active 2 year old and a 7 week old that hasn't quite figured out that the more sleep mommy gets, the happier she is!

I have been a little snappy with my children lately, especially the 2yo....he gets into EVERYTHING and his sleep deprived momma is tired of telling him to stop 10 times in a row only to have him continue doing said task and then screaming as if I slapped him when I tell him he has to go to time-out...ugh

But, I think I am manifesting signs of other stressors....I am not home this year for the holidays.  And while we were also absent last year, my parents were able to come up and make me feel much less like I was missing out on the fun and festivities.  Unfortunately for me, they cannot always change all of their plans in life to accommodate my crazy.  

I'm sad but also struggling somewhat to get into the spirit of the season this year.  I have all my shopping done, it's not that.  But I do not have the same excitement and butterflies (yep, still get them) of Santa coming to town as I usually do.  Hopefully it will come tomorrow night while we are tucking in H and telling him that Santa will come while he's sleeping.  Maybe it will come while I watch his face as he walks into our den and sees that we were telling him the truth (and Santa and his elves were very good to him this year).  Possibly it will be in the afterglow of the chaos when the wrapping paper is still feathering the den and H passes out from all the joy of the day!  (He for sure passed out last year after being so overwhelmed by the stuff!)

And then maybe, just maybe, it's not about me anymore.  Maybe my butterflies are leaving so that H and C can catch them.  My parents always made a big deal of being a believer of Santa (we still tell each other "if you don't believe, you don't get presents!") and H is just starting to get to the age where he will start grasping what the heck we're even talking about.   I truly can't wait to see his eyes light up and his smile consume his sweet face that morning....let's just hope that mommy-joy lasts through his first tantrum of the day!!!

Love you all and please have a very merry Christmas!!!